I Know The Truth Lies Inbetween The First and The Fortieth Drink
Weirdness this week....just a lot of weirdness. I am not feeling myself lately, and I'm not really sure why. I have a hard time remembering stuff and I keep tuning out into space. Weird. Perhaps aliens broke into our bedroom and probed my brain.

So I'm getting ready to host a baby shower for one of my best friends of all time! It's not for a month, but given my free time and stamping skills I'm getting started on the invitations now (I am making them!). I am really looking forward to it, but I have a little apprehension about one of the guests to be invited.

My friend and this girl, we'll call her Lady X, were friends for a while and then Lady X and I became friends too. We had a lot in common, so it was easy to get along. At first. The more I got to know her, the more differences became apparant. But still...she was a really nice girl and I liked her and we had fun! Eventually, we ended up getting into a disagreement over something really stupid. I don't even remember how it started, but it was absolutely ridiculous. Some things were said and emotions ran high. Soon, things were blown way out of proportion and we were outright fighting. Some nasty things were said, by me as well as her.

Later, after we had stopped talking for a while, I calmed down and decided that nothing stupid is worth ruining a friendship over. And even if she didn't want to be friends anymore, I needed to apologize for all the things I said. And since we shared a mutual friend, I wanted to at least be able to keep things civil between us so as to not make our friend feel weird. So even if she could not forgive me....a truce.

So I apologized. It was a lengthy and heartfelt apology...I really meant it. I was sorry I let my anger get the better of me and said mean things to her. She decided, I guess, that my actions were unforgivable and chose not to accept my apology or my request for a truce. That was over three years ago and I haven't seen her or spoken to her since.

Now I am faced with having her in my house for this baby shower. I want Lady X there because my friend wants her there. Really, I am not even angry anymore and I can certainly be more than civil, I can be gracious and friendly. My concern is, can she? I have no idea if she still holds a grudge or not. And the prospect of coming face to face with someone who doesn't like me is a little intimidating.

Even if she hates my guts, I am hoping she will put on a smile for my friends sake and be friendly with me for two hours. This is not about me, this is about making our mutual friends day special. She can curse my name all the way home if she wants to, but I just hope she will be nice while she is here. Maybe I should find out what her favorite dessert is. Special dessert can't hurt.